Hello my fellow subscribers! Once again, I've come to haunt your blog reading days. I know I haven't been updating my blog as regularly as I would've wanted to, but hey at least I write long and winding posts to make up for my lack of update. Anyway, I really shouldn't be writing too much on this one, coz I really should be spending this time to practise for my guitar lesson tomorrow....which kinda leads me to this thought. I've kinda been slacking a lot with my guitar playing these days...and I feel like I've hit a wall in my guitar skills.
As some of you may know, I take guitar lessons every Friday from this awesome guitar teacher called Harry. So I usually practise on Thursday and Friday mornings before I go for the lesson and some occasional Saturdays when I have absolutely no plans for the day. I don't normally practise on Mondays-Wednesdays because I've got school on those days...and it's always very hectic throughout those three days.
So my problem is, I've been really lazy over the past few weeks that I keep procrastinating when it comes to guitar practice. I keep postponing it and do other stuff (like writing this post). I feel like I'm somehow losing my edge...and I'm just so de-motivated to practise. I was never like that before....I usually get really psyched before my lessons...and I always practise for hours to eliminate any errors in my playing. But gosh...it just wasn't like that for the past few weeks, and I feel like I'm throwing my money away.
I've been asking myself why...and I've come up with a few reasons. One, I've just been really lazy to the point where I just sit down in front of my computer everyday and watch whatever shit I can find in my archives of movies and tv shows.Two, I'm not learning the stuff that I want, such as fingerstyle and jazz. I'm actually learning a whole lot of Blues atm...not that I don't like it...but I'm starting to get really sick of it. Three, my guitar playing days are going no where. What I basically mean is that, there's no direction in my guitar learning...I just take lessons for the sake of it and it's not like I'm taking lessons to play in a band or something like that. And finally, I'm starting to realize that my career path is pointing to the direction the kitchen instead of the music biz, and therefore I'm starting to focus all my thoughts and energy into becoming a chef and not a musician.
I guess I'm just really de-motivated at the moment....I'm just one of those people who is infected with "middle child syndrome"where self-motivation just isn't one of my traits. So I'm a person who constantly needs people around me to motivate and push me to my limits. And lately I really need a big push coz I've just been stagnant with everything going on in my life....except for my savings account which is kinda going on a downwards slope as time goes by. So I guess I could really use some positive words of encouragement from people time to time. It's weird...coz most people would think that I'm a gurl who doesn't care what people say about me....but you'd be surprised to know that I really do care what ppl say about me....but only the good stuff though. As for the bad stuff, I'd probably ask them to "FCUK OFF"!!
Remember in my previous posts where I wrote about becoming both a chef and a musician?? Well...I'm starting to think that it's impossible...and I really gotta pick one and focus on it as soon as possible. Now, I've started to develop a habit of writing down the pros and cons of two situations that gives me a dilemma. So here it goes...
Pros of becoming a chef
1. Lots of job opportunities.
2. I'm passionate about food and cooking and it's definitely something that I love doing.
3. Career path is more stable and certain.
4. Traveling opportunities.
5. Contributes to my dream of opening up a restaurant in the future.
6. High level of work satisfaction.
Cons of becoming a chef
1. Extremely competitive environment.
2. Very stressful and busy job environment.
3. Male-dominant industry.
4. My social life would definitely go down the drain...especially with the long hours of work and working on weekends and holidays.
5. It takes at least 8 years to climb to the top of the chain.
6. Lousy salary and did I mention long hours of work??
Pros of becoming a musician
1. I am passionate, skillful, confident and talented in this field, as compared to cooking.
2. Music is a relaxing and therapeutic activity for me.
3. I could get rich and famous overnight (ha-ha).
4. The lack of famous female guitarists (especially fingerstyle guitarists) gives me an opportunity to shine amongst the needles in a haystack.
5. High levels of job satisfaction.
6. More consistent working hours and more fun times!
Cons of becoming a musician
1. Career path is extremely volatile and uncertain.
2. Highly dependable on contacts within the music biz, which can be difficult to form.
3. Job opportunities are minimal.
4. Salary could be millions of dollars if you're famous....or it could be zilch, when you don't get gigs. So it's extremely unpredictable.
It all becomes very clear to me when I lay it out like that, y'know. It allows me to scrutinize each point and set my priorities. However, this is just a guideline for me...it doesn't mean that I'm gonna make my decision solely based on this pros and cons list. Also, I don't believe I have the ability to predict my future...I can only influence a big part of it based on the decisions that I make....sometimes, good things swing by (like winning a lottery ticket) and sometimes bad stuff get in the way (like this economic recession). So what I'm trying to say is...I'm trying to go with the flow...and at this moment, it seems like the flow is pointing towards the kitchen, instead of the glamorous stage.
Anyway...I really should get going and practise my guitar (even though I don't really feel like it). I'll catch up with you guys later. Cheers.
P/S: DAmn it...I gotta practise this song called "It hurts me too" by John Mayall and I don't even like that freakin' song. ARGGHHHHH.....
Thursday, March 26, 2009
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Hi Ruth....or Nancy....Thanks for reading my blog. It's quite inspiring to know that people are enjoying my blog....which is why I will try updating it as often as I can. Cheers.
hi veron! I am planning to take guitar lesson on may.beginner bah.hehe. Or maybe it is alreaady too late to take guitar lesson at this age.;p
Veron, it is POSSIBLE to be a chef and musician at the same. You are the one who gona make it possible. I know you have passion and skills in both fields and i believe you are capable of doing it.:)
Take care.
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