Work sucks...I know!

Have you ever felt like walking over to your boss' office and throw a resignation letter to his face and then say "Fuck you...I'm done with you! You're the shittiest boss in the world, that even my dog could manage your work a whole lot better!" The whole day at work today, I was just playing these images in my mind over and over again...experimenting on different phrases and scenarios that could sound meaner and more demeaning than the one above.

For example,

"Hey boss...listen..there's just something I've been meaning to tell ya. No offence but, you are just absolutely incapable of doing your job properly. And I think I know why. Coz you're just a LOW LIFE SONNAVABITCH!!!"

"Boss, I knew that you were just a pussy when you first stepped into that door. I never doubt that.....not even once!"

And there's more.....


Pheww...can you believe that deep inside my heart, I'm actually that EVIL??? Dude...are u kidding me? I couldn't even believe that I made up those crap by myself. Damn it...is there really that much hatred in me? Oh well, I guess when you work in that Stamford shithole for that long...you're bound to think of stuff like that.

Now, what was I saying...so yeah...today was such a boring day that I had so much free time to think of stuff like that. You know...I never felt this way before. When I first started this job as a room service attendant...I was so excited and so willing to learn. I took pride in my job, carried out the tasks responsibly, joke around with my colleagues, respect my managers and all the great values an employee can simply possess...you name it. But NOW, the feeling's gone...just gone with the wind. Now I simply feel the opposite. I don't take pride in my job anymore, in fact I think my job is demeaning. Taking orders and delivering food...and then clearing up their mess...it's okay if they eat like princesses. But what if they eat like pigs?? Who's gonna have to clear it? Ding dong...ROOM SERVICE ATTENDANT!! Sometimes you even find used condoms on the plates...and say you didn't realise it and touched it by accident. EWWWWW....trust me...it has happened before! Thank God not to me!

I also don't perform my tasks responsibly anymore...now I just do whatever I think is "enough". And for God's sakes, I don't really talk to or hang out with my colleagues anymore. We used to be so tight that everytime after work, we would go over to AV8 bar and have a drink, play pool and just go crazy. Now, I tend to just go straight home after my shift. I also don't respect my managers as much as before. I used to always say "YES" to my managers...no matter what. But now...I never fail to say "NO" or at least, I never agree to do something for them without putting up a fight. Sighh...I just wish everything was still like before, when I worked for fun, experience and of course money. But now, I'm just working for MONEY, MONEY and MONEY!!

When am I ever gonna get out of this shithole. My friends just say "Quit it if you don't like it no more!" Hah...is it that simple? Is it??? NOOOO!!! If I quit, where am I gonna get money for my guitar lessons? I still wanna be a musician someday, somewhere, somehow. And if I quit, how am I gonna pay for my gym membership...which I never go to! DAmn it...I really gotta start going to gym...I'm paying for the membership every week, but I never go. I haven't been to gym for approximately 3-4 months now....and yet I'm still paying for it. And if I quit, how the hell am I gonna pay for fuel? It's not like the price of fuel is getting cheaper by the day. And finally...if I quit...HOW THE HELL AM I GONNA EVER SAVE ENOUGH MONEY FOR MY VERY FIRST HOME...IN WHICH I INTEND TO OWN BY THE TIME I'M 25 YEARS OF AGE!! Now tell me my dear friends....HOW????!!!!

Alright, I'll get off this topic. So...despite all these negativity, I managed to think of something really cool. An awesome idea....not original...but still awesome!! I'm going to set up my own food diary very soon! What is food diary? Well, if you google "Food diary", most of the results will come out as diet methods. It's for ppl who care a lot about their weight, and they use a food diary to keep up with the food they eat. BUT...my food diary will be absolutely different. It's AWESOMER!! Is there such a word? Anyway, my food diary will feature any good food that I eat in restaurants and I'm going to write about how I like or dislike about the dish. Something like what food critics do....except that mine is just for the sake of increasing my knowledge about food and ingredients, and of course it can be useful for my future reference, when I have the opportunity to create my own menu. Now you see how I excited I am about food...

However, I'm still thinking how I should run this food diary idea. Should I create a blog especially for it, and this way ppl can give me comments or should I keep it discrete? In case someone steals my ideas! Haha...I'm not gonna worry 'bout that. It's not like I'm that great anyway. ALright...I guess I'll probably stop now. I'll catch you later in my next post. Thanks for reading. Bye!