ROBERTO, STOP READING MY BLOG!!!!

You wanna know what happened today?? Today, I officially lost my privacy to write freely on my blog. There's this guy in my class called Roberto (I know you're reading this, Bob), he discovered the existence of my blog when he googled "Smoked Salmon Fant***a". Sorry I don't wanna disclose the entire name of the dish because I don't want anyone in my school to google it and stumble upon my blog. If you remember, there's a picture of the dish in my previous post....and I can't believe that it got me busted. As most of you would know, this blog is kept within a loop of a few close friends only. So now...I can't mention any names from my college no more...I'm gonna have to use code names from now on...lol.

It's funny how it happened. Roberto just came to me during demo today and said, "Veron, I've got a confession to make." LOL....first thing that came into my mind was....Oh no, does he like me or something? (Yes Roberto...I really had that in mind). Basically, I got caught off guard and I was totally freaking out, coz I remembered writing lots of things about college and I did mention lots of names. I was really worried that I incriminated anyone with bad comments or something....and most importantly, I remember writing something about him...but I forgot if it was good or bad. (Note to Roberto: It was actually a very flattering comment...but I decided to delete it....i don't wanna give you the satisfaction..MuAhahahahha)

When I came home from college tonight, I quickly switched on my computer and accessed my blog archives and screened thru all the posts that I've written and made sure that I didn't write anything incriminating anybody in college in a bad way. As I read posts to posts....I reminisced the incidents that occurred in the past 6 months...and I realized that I've grown so much. I'm not talking bout growing physically...oh hell I wish that happened....but what I meant was mentally. I realized that I see things very differently now...and I even stopped swearing. I mean I minimized it...trust me...no chef could survive without swearing. Most importantly, I realized that I had less bad days since I quit my job...and I actually became more relaxed and calm. I guess the Stamford job really had a big impact on my emotions and mental state. At first, I had some doubts as to whether I've made a mistake by quitting that job during an economic recession, especially since unemployment is getting worse....but after reading my previous posts, I realized that it was the right choice, and I had to get outta that depressing shithole to move on with my life.

Reading my blog archives was like reading my diary. It makes you reminisce and laugh about what you did. I totally laughed my ass off when I read about the bad practical lessons I had in the Basic course...and I can't believe that I thought Chef Anita picked on me becoz she hated me. Lol...she ain't that bad....she's actually pretty cool. Another one that made me laugh was the attitude that I brought into the kitchen when I was in Basic course. I can't believe I was such a nervous wreck before...I mean I was literally stressed out about things like being the last to serve in class, being one of the least experienced student in class, and not being able to sort of "shine" in class as much as I would've liked to.

LOL...it's really funny coz now that I'm in Intermediate...I don't even care about all these things no more. I don't care if I'm the last, as long as my food is awesome. I don't care if I'm the least experienced in class, as long as I show extra passion. And finally I don't even care if I don't "shine" as much as I'd like to as long as I've put all my effort and tried my best. And you know what??? This attitude works sooooo much better. I mean really....this semester, I'm no longer the last one to finish and my food is so much more awesome than before. Even my pastry skills have improved...lol. Remember the puff pastry incident last year?? The one where I failed twice in one day?? That was a train wreck.

Another thing I realized was how many times I mentioned in my blog that quitting Uni and entering culinary school was the best decision I've made in my life. I think I might've mentioned it 3 or more times. And guess what?? That comment still stands six months later....I've never regretted it ever...not even for a second. I knew that quitting Uni would mean that I could never graduate in a gown and wear the square hat, where my family would come over to Sydney and see me graduate and take graduation pictures of me (not that I actually long for it anyway...but thats not the point). And also I might be jeopardizing my future by not attaining a university degree....however, I've decided that being a chef is way more gratifying for me, and that I believe that I would be way happier taking this career path. I know I could never get filthy rich by being a chef...but to be honest, that's not my major goal in life. I gotta admit that I still haven't figured out life comprehensively, but one thing for sure, I don't see myself in a business attire, sitting down in an office in front of a computer typing stuff and making phone calls in the future. HELL NO!!! I'd rather be sweaty, get my hands dirty and cook in the kitchen for the rest of my life.

I also remember how I've always idolized Gordon Ramsay before I started this course. He was like my sole inspiration to become a chef. I've always thought he was awesome...and that I'd like to be like him one day. LOL...it made me laugh when I thought about it. Gordon Ramsay is not that great...I mean...my chefs can do all the things he does. Some can even do better than Ramsay. He just happens to be a lucky guy who got married to a woman whose family has money to invest in him. I can quite confidently say that Chef Steve is way more knowledgeable than him....and Chef Ross is equally as good as him in knife skills. And they don't even need to yell and swear to get us to do things the right way. I was so naive before to think that Gordon Ramsay is the best...LOL....where in fact he's just an over-rated celebrity chef who just got lucky. I guess TV has a way of leading my thoughts...I watched way too much of Gordon Ramsay shows before...lol.

So my exams are coming up in 2 weeks time. To be honest, I'm not feeling nervous at all...i guess it just hasn't hit me yet. Either that or I'm way more confident this time. I'm leaning towards more to the first one. Anyway...I've got nothing more to report. To those in KK....I hope to see ya'll soon...make sure u guys spend time with me while I'm back...if not, I'm never ever gonna come back again. LOL...yes it's an ultimatum. Spend time with me, or you'll never see me again! hehe...

Zalfa, if you're reading this...hope you've enjoyed my blog. I just remembered that I wrote a comprehensive piece about you in one of my previous posts....the one where I mentioned Ross is the boss. LOL. Anyway...nice chat with you today at McDonald's....sorry I broke your record.

Alright....tata for now!! Cheers!