Insomnia

YESSZZ!! It's finally Wednesday, which is the final day of class for the week. You have no idea how much of a relief this is. Getting up at 6am in the morning just isn't a bit of fun at all. As usual, I went to college at 6.30am in the morning, and I made some "Mushroom Chaussons" and "Poached Pear" today. Mushroom Chaussons is just like curry puffs, except that the filling is a mixture of mushrooms, ham, foie gras (duck's liver) and parsley. As usual again, mine wasn't as successful. It didn't puff too well for me this time...the puff folds were too minimal. However, my poached pear was great. My chef was impressed with my pear. She said that the texture is perfect and the apricot glaze was just right. Not too sweet and chunky...just perfect. So I guess today isn't such a bad day after all.

The reason for my title today is because I haven't had much sleep for the past three days. I think I have insomnia...sleep disorder. My body is tired, and yes I do feel sleepy, but I just can't fall asleep. Even after I closed my eyes and thought I'm asleep, I'm actually not...coz I could still hear the bass pumps produced from Bryant's subwoofer in the next room....crystal clear. I wanted to ask him to turn down a notch, but was too lazy to get up. But I knew that wasn't the main reason that I couldn't fall asleep. It was me...purely me.

I HAVE INSOMNIA!!

How to treat insomnia? WTF...I'm no doctor. All I know is I could pop a pill and sleep like a baby. But I don't wanna pop a pill. I wanna sleep naturally. But as I had time to think about it today, I believe this is the beginning of a chef's life. Why do I say that? Coz chefs never have enough sleep...they never do...not that they don't wanna...it's just that they can't. They gotta work like 12-18 hours a day, and that's like 6 hours of sleep? Well...what about taking shower, eat, and shit? That'll probably take another hour. So that's 5 hours of the day left to sleep. It's true...I'm not exaggerating. You can ask any chef in the world...they will tell u the same thing.

I know I know...I haven't reached that level where I work 18 hours a day. But I probably will encounter this in the future. So like I said, this is the beginning of a chef's life. Long working hours, short or no breaks, stressful environment and sleepless nights. That's worse than being an inmate. Except that there's no satisfaction in being an inmate. But as a chef, there's satisfaction to gain every single day after a successful and productive service, no matter how tiring it is. That's why I chose this career.

So when I got back from college today at around 3pm, I crashed straight away until about 10pm. And yet I'm still tired. It's all the accummulated fatigue from previous days. And I still gotta work tomorrow. DAMN IT. Life is hard.

I know life as a chef is very hard...but I've learnt something from an episode of Scrubs last night.

"Anything that doesn't require hard work is not worth having at all."

I think this quote has a strong truth to it. It makes a lot of sense. If something is hard to get, then it must be something very valuable. Same case to being a chef. If it's hard being a chef, then it must a great thing to become one. So no matter how hard it is, I will keep striving on.

That's all for my post today. I'm very tired and my mind is not letting out words. I actually struggled a bit writing this post. I'm just basically very stressed out I need more rest. I'll see you again in my next post. Later.