Friends Never After

Hi guys, yet again. This is gonna be a short one. Today was great...I was great in class. I was fast and most importantly, on time. I was one of the first ones to serve the food up to my chef and she said I did great today. She's glad...I'm glad. So anyway, I had a great day.

You ever wonder 'bout all this friends forever shit? Well, I did...today. There's this friend I've known since kindergarten and he was my best friend back then. We were great together as friends, up until primary 4 when we started hanging out with other friends. Then we were friends again in form 3 and we even played in a band together. We talked about everything...God, relationship, problems, music, yada yada. I loved it. The friendship was real...it almost felt like it was unbreakable.

Then comes high school graduation, we went our separate ways. We never contacted each other after that, unless we were back home in KK. Even that, we never really preserved that sorta bond....that friendship like it was before. We were more like long lost friends trying to get to know each other again. I was okay with that back then, coz at least we still msn each other once in a while or even talk on the phone.

But when time goes on and on, we stopped doing that. We were out of each other's life. We were like strangers to each other. We're worse than hi-bye friends...mainly becoz we never contacted each other at all. But every once in a while, I would send him an email asking him how he was doing....but I will never ever ever get a reply from em'. Not even a late one. So from then on, I stopped emailing him.

Then one fine day, he sent me an email to an address which I rarely use and he asked how I was doing and shit like that. Then I go, Okay...he's reaching out to me and I guess he wants to know how I'm doing and all. So I replied his email and told him about the changes in my life. Like how I dropped outta uni and am going to culinary school. And how I've been taking guitar lessons for a year now and it's been great. You know...catch-up stuff. To be honest, I got really excited hearing from him, coz he was one of my closest friends and I really missed the times we shared as friends. The jamming, the arguments, the annoying stuff he did, and everything else.

So I was kinda expecting him to reply my email and perhaps even tell me how his life had been. I actually checked my inbox that I rarely use EVERYDAY...which I normally don't. I usually check that inbox on a monthly basis. So after about 2 weeks, I gave up. I didn't check that inbox ever again for his reply....up until today. I was kinda crossing my fingers about it. But once again, I was disappointed.

It's been more than a month now since I replied his email, and there's no sign of him anywhere. Frankly, I am very upset about it. Because...what the fuck...we've been friends for like...more than a decade!! Like 16 years man!! And is this how you treat a friend?? Well, I don't expect gifts and flowers....and hell no, I don't even expect him to wish me happy birthday on my birthday, but what I hope at least is for him to reply my fuckin' emails.

So just a while ago, I sent him quite a short but in-your-face kinda email. Basically, I told him that he shouldn't send me anymore emails out of the blue and when I reply, he's just gonna disappear like a ghost and not reply to it. I know it's quite a random sorta email to send to him, but I just want him to know that he shouldn't forget about his friends so quickly. It took us 16 years to build our friendship, but just a couple of years to kill it. It really does start to sound like a cliche.

I don't know why it's such a big deal to me. I know I sometimes do it to my own friends as well. Sometimes I forget about them. I think last year I forgot 'bout Jacq's birthday...but then I did remember it a couple of days later. But once again...I'm not expecting him to remember my b'day or anything like that. But I just wanna keep in touch and update ourselves with each other. But he's like this phantom that comes and goes whenever he wants. I really hate that. It's either you come or you go. I don't care if it goes either way....just don't pretend and ask about me and then ignore it.

So I guess friends are not forever after all. And life still goes on after that. So there's no point to be grieving about it. And I'm not in grief. I'm just a li'l upset 'bout it. Anyway, that's all I gotta say today. I'm sure some of you would know who I'm talking about...and I'm sure you guys have had the same experience. But life goes on anyway. So I'll catch you guys later! Bye!

p/s: It's not a short post, I know. But it's the shortest among all of my posts! Hehe! *winK*